The answer is NO.

Again I come to the junction and see no road ahead. We discussed where are we heading. His answer and mine is totally different. I think too much or he is right about everything.

Knowing myself tooooo well - I am not ready to commit to another level with him. but i do have high expectation towards him. I want him to be happy. but our definition of happiness doesn't seems to jive.

Proposal after proposal... the answer is still NO. why?

Treat on Holiday

This is an issue... when you are on holiday and your partner is busier than you... you go SHOPPING.

Clause 1: You will never buy anything except food when you are hungry, drinks when you are thirsty

Clause 2: Window shopping always applicable

End up:

Spotted Item 1 - TOUS handbag
(Pass)

Spotted Item 2 - Burberry Fragance (The Beat)
(Pass)

Spotted Item 3 - Soda Mini Skirt
Can't resist.... Arrgghhhh


For the price of RM99 - 50% discount. It ended up in my wardrobe now Haha...

Just another excuse for spending money buying unnecessary!!!

Oh I just LOVE, LOVE, LOVE shopping.

Pssttt.... wore it on the 1st day and my dear's reaction.

When did you purchase it? How come I have never seen it before? *Wink**Wink* :p

The News

Finally...

He is promoted officially my superior once again. Mixed feeling... but once I knew the news the first thing came to my mind... RESIGN.

Sigh... I think I really unhappy working with him. Oh well did I try hard enough to evaluate why?...

ANSWER: LEADERSHIP

The most important thing I am looking upon in the working environment

Touring Southern States

It has been a long time that I did not travel to southern states in Malaysia. Because of work I traveled down to Johor Bahru, Kluang, Batu Pahat, Melaka and Seremban. I only manage to pass by Muar. All destination in two days. Lucky that I am travel with a bunch of easy going colleague - stress free haha...

Exam finished. Now preparing for next semester. My good friend Christ is getting hitch this month September 28th. All the best wishes to her.

As for work, I am working on improving the positive energy in the team which i found lacking in terms of spirits, attitude and ethics. PHeeeewwww a lot of communication to be fix. I felt that more people talk bad about thier own team. And the virus spreading from one to another. I just don't get it - why would you do that? It is your own team! You are the one who work with them at least 8 hours a day. Yet you are the one who tell them the team is going down:( , hopeless, not worthy... to me are you a team player? Obviously not in the eyes of me and other people.

I dare not say that I am a good team player because obviously I am always against and disrespect my direct superior most of the time and worst of all this is the major issue I am facing since I am reporting to him. I will not give up but yet to try harder to communicate to him on the work issue. Until that I lost faith and give up hope on it. Leaders??? Nah... definately not him.

The mark of 08 08 08

Think of it - 06 06 06, 07 07 07 and now 08 08 08... girl friends called up wishes everybody world peace! Impressive - extravaganza Beijing 2008 Olympic opening ceremony held in the "Bird Nest" just finished a few minutes ago. The week of sports just started and my work is piling up.

I am facing a huge drawback refraining to talk to my "superior" lately. I am losing my patient hearing nonsense with him. Of course I learn how to be selected listening. Eeewwww... it makes me sick!

My good friend is to wed in September. Wishing her all the best and blissful years ahead. Hem... time to think of what to wear. Although it does not make any difference but still have to look presentable.

Enough!

Ever wonder when is the last time I hate people till this stage. I really loss my patient towards sarcastic and non-genuine attitude. Enough is enough - FUCK YOU!

If you ever want to work with me - kindly review yourself. Or else go back to your parents and become a cry baby. Stop pretending in front of me.

Once I am pissed that's it. No return.

Back to work - winning team?

Resume work as normal. I am in the midst of searching to make my team to be in the running of winning the marketing brand via media in Malaysia before international arena. Just received call today - we are in! So my other KL team will work closely to fight together. But before that, lot more to do gather especially our current marketing info and bullets in order to be shortlisted.

Well more hard work to be done. Did a lot of reading for improving leadership in product management but still worried over is there anyone I can look to become as my mentor. Prof. Ivan still the best but he is almost 90 and didn't see him for quite sometime. lack of communication... sir...miss you badly.

Work work work... More of playground to me hehe

July - explorer month

Exam results is out. Score not too bad, in fact I am glad that it's over. And now it would be finishing up my assignment for International Business Strategy and Entrepreneurship. I enjoy the entrepreneurship module especially working with the team.

Just because it is low season month, I decided to travel to Mainland China. Well I lost 3kg for 8 days trip haha... Went with mum, she's exciting about it. And both of us spend over RM10k for the trip. Shanghai, Wuxi, Nanjing, Hangzhou (favourite place) and a few more places can't recall. Surprise, surprise, the tour leader is my former high school senior!

Shopping as the mainagenda - we bought tea leaves, candies, jade, clothes, cosmetics Oh and mum bought pearl for "ka chong" damn funny!!! I asked mum,

What if no one want to marry your daughter?
Mum said it can't be!!! Well I am pretty sure mum is always boring and find something to dream off... The worst fear is that mum stood in front of a "tow chai fatt" under the hot weather and pray hard like never before. walau... scared!

Besides that I manage to travel with one of my mate Tracy and her family. We getting along well and her mum is a very sweet lady. She also spend a lot haha... Girls impluse buying behaviour.

Came back to Malaysia and felt that, I really can't go China alone without a travel buddy who knows chinese. haha... The food is not that bad, it is just me that infavour chinese food that much. I still love my teh tarik... And guess what, Malaysia mega sale... Obviously went window shopping and fell in love with the Armani Exchange dress. Didn't manage to try it out due to in hurry to catch a movie. I have been thinking the dress day and night... told dear about it- all he said [BUY]!!

Back to work - I do miss my team. One of them actually tender his resignation for a better offer and suites his core competencies. I am happy for him as he knows what he is aiming for and take action on it. I am hiring another candidate in my section and one of my boss is allocating a mgt trainee to my section in August too.

My health... caught some cold and hay fever lately. Exhausted.

Ahhhh... It's June

So I have not updated my blog for a while. Well, to sum up; May-busy month as it was the EXAM month. Done 2 papers - Operation Management and Game theory for business. Both are relatively interesting subjects which I would recommend any of you all out there who loves challenges and operational kind of person should take it up.

Work life - ok and pretty in the sense some of my team member got transfer out and bosses don't know what to do with him. I am quite upset in the sense my superior don't actually know what they want and what makes their presence worth for the company. I know they have expectation towards my team and me, but Hello.... we have expectation towards you too. Sigh... enough!

I am torn in between - in the sense seeing the team start to loosen their bond. One will say: she won't do this! One will say: he won't participate! The other one: Never mind la! ME: What - is this what you guys want. All I am asking is to help me to help the team.

Personal life, I have move in into the new home. My dad's dream house. He spend 5 months renovating and supervising people handle his house with care. Guess I am not a fan of staying with my parents. Nothing much besides I miss my apartment which I sold it and funded the renovation cost. The new home is quite cozy especially bro and my room. We painted the wall Egg Yolk Yellow and the bathroom... white Italy mosaic with the strong red, black and glitter white checker box.. let me find a time to post the picture and we will see the actual result.

With dear - Like that lo... boring - sshhhhhhhh

Look up to leadership!

Came accross newspaper that Datuk Seri Abdul Wahid Omar is leaving TM and joining Maybank. Dear told me a few months ago and i just didn't believe it. He is amazing as turning a GLC which privatized many years ago but adopting "goverment" culture and just with 4 years ... it turns into a new leaf.

Dear came accross him and told me about his "way" of leadership. Soft on people but hash on matter. "Cruel to be kind" policy and yet "diplomatic" to me. wei... you think easy? Expanding wings of TM to regional arena and capitalising domestic market hitting it by remarkable margin! Name a few preeminence strategy - VOIP (voice over internet protocol), Competitive culture - punctuality and customer centricity... one of the service highlight most of the time.

hem.. how much does he earns? Does he achieve job satisfaction? He did mention on a few interviews with Bloomberg and Bernama - his challenge "PEOPLE". Getting along and addressing matters with the right attitude person or group. "IT BOILS DOWN TO LEADERSHIP" A smart one will eliminate those with problematic working attitude although with brain out from the team and recruit those with right attitude even without experience. This will save a lot of time by doing right thing at the begining.

When i saw the interview back then I don't really get it, but now I fully understand his notion.

ApriL

Time time time... One night I sat down looking at dear... Can't imagine I am with him for the past 10 years.


And last month, I am terribly busy days and nights. Although I took a few days off, my mind just keep on thinking... family, work, teammates (the bad had gone worst) and pissed me off, social work and my study.


And what I did. I went to shopping with dear. Shopping alone will cause your wallet empty, with another spendthrift dear, you will be broke. Haha... I bought myself a new phone. Went to Starhill - see whether a possibility I can find my Fendi bag - SOLDOUT!!!! Argggghhhhhh

Last month, I bought a 8 days package to CHINA on upcoming July. Mum will be joining me. Dear is overloaded with work - not following. Hem.. too bad!!


That's it?

Where should I begin? My intuition? I had a funny feeling when I went for lunch with dear family a week earlier. Dear's sis-in-law "V" didn't join us and I didn't see her. Maybe she is caught up with work which she told me earlier.
The news came shockingly when I am having lunch with my dear at Ipoh Old Town Last Saturday 22/03.


Dear family is planning to celebrate his birthday on that evening. Dear's phone rings, it is his 2nd brother. Dear's facial reaction worries me. After he ended the call, he ask me to think of an excuse to cancel off the celebration. Obviously I will ask why and who's that on the phone.

Dear: It's bro. Mummy and elder bro is having an arguement now at home.

Me: Huh... serious leh. The how come 2nd bro can call you?

Dear: That fella for sure "siam" to other place.

Me: By the way what is mummy yelling about?

Dear: Elder bro is seperating with "V". Not into divorce stage yet. She went back to her home for the past 2 week liao.

Me: Let me guess... "SAME CASE WITH DAD"

Dear: Yup. "Unfaithful"! Elder bro is with another woman.

Me: Well... No wonder mum is furious - for sure she will question on Zack (their 1yr+ son) status.

Dear: New generation victim! .......

Sigh.... DRAMATIC. This ponder me on my trust towards my dear. My head keeps on thinking - It is in their BLOOD!

And why it has to be during dear's birthday? Last year I bump into his dad with a woman at KLCC, this year round his elder bro case. But I am not sure how realiable is his 2nd bro news as to me their family really lack of communication & bonding.

Dear's 26th Birthday

Yeah... Dear birthday is approaching... I have date him on the saturday 15th Mar - pre celebrate. Brought dear to this Vincenzo Restaurant at



One Bangsar, Jalan Ara,Bangsar Baru,59100 Kuala Lumpur.Tel : 603-2287 1686



Not many people dining at the time we arrive. Since dear just finish his work quite late, he seems tired. We arrive about 7 plus - earlier than the reservation time. Once we step into the restaurant, the have shelves of wines...

Once we settle down, dear start ordering his favourite Spaghetti Bolognaise and for me... I can't remember exactly hehe... it is just a normal dinner and ends with tiramisu. The strawberry is sour... yeeeeeee


Nothing impressive to me. And to dear is just another meal with me... Initially I am upset but thinking of how much effort I put into celebrating his birthday... I didn't do much ssssssshhhhhhhhhh.

Results

Hehe... I still remember how worried I am when I sat for my Accounts paper earlier last December. I am prepared to re sit my paper. Result came out in the begining of the month and it took me 2 weeks plus to obtain my result.

Finally... I obtain a pass although I didn't score on this module. Pheww.... lucky this time but I should not let this happen again. Yes, it does pull down my average marks... :(. Thinking of which I better start on my operation module assignment. Deadline is just around the corner. And I don't even have a topic in my mind... Oh NO>>>>>>

Valentine's Night!

I almost can't remember when is my last romantic dinner with my dear. A few years ago??

But this year, dear brought me to this Le Bouchon French Restaurant at the corner of Changkat Bukit Bintang. It is a cosy cottagelike dining place. We enjoy the food and the house wine. We took the dinner set and we took almost 2 hours to finish the 3 course set meal...
The dish that I enjoy most is the Les Escargots De Bourgogne Aux Epinards - loosely translates to Burgundy Snails cooked in Creamy Spinach Sauce. I had the Les Escalopes De Magret Confit Sauce aux Pruneaux - Duck Magret Confit Escalopes served with Plum Sauce and the dessert vanilla ice cream with chocolate sauce and almond top.
I am surprise he brought me there. All I know is that his liking is more towards Italian food. Authentic French cuisine???
Meantime, I have to start planning for dear birthday. Hem...

It begins...

Chinese New Year almost ended. While I took 10 days off for my study before CNY, my team is "sabotage" by other team manager. He "LEADS" my friend "K" to organise a recruitment drive. When I am resume to my work... there is no return. So I have to swallow what has been started... What a dismay it became when I had an argument with my ex-colleague. Yes... during 3rd day of CNY if I am not mistaken... my leadership has been questioned! I still remember the quote " if you can't lead the team, please try harder"! E-mail flying all around which I am surprise my superior came out with a so called "cooling" email and didn't shoot me. May be he gives up... Hahaha...

Obviously I must have said something which makes he thinks this way. By all means I am fucking damn pissed off because I do not know what the HELL makes him so arrogant and "siew ka". And on the other hand, he told his superior my next door manager another story... which I don't give a damn. All I know I can't let him step on my down line as "K" works her ass off for the recruitment drive within the short notice.

I will never let it go, however I do know that what goes around comes around... So we shall wait.

EXAMS....

1ST exam after 3 and a half year rest...and most probably I am going to resit my Accounts paper... Yes I failed my paper this semester... And I strongly believe there won't be miracle. Anyway, I am interested in spending my wealth rather than calculating it haha...

How come I am thinking of shopping whereby I am suppose writing an exam topic... Who's care...
I saw this Fendi bag... I love it so much and keep on staring at it on the magazine... It is available at KLCC??

Fendi Crossword Grande Mirrored Bag


Well I think is time for me to change my Playboy bag then.

New Year 2008 - Girls NighT Out...

Ever wonder how to celebrate the New Year's Eve? Hehe... there are these four lovely girlfriend... dump their boyfriend back at home and went party almost all night long.

1st stop - Cheras, Leisure Mall

Definitely need to have some light dinner with Mummy Woan Shya... and Seok Ling
Wong & Wong at Secret Recipe

After sending mummy back home to accompany family for the new year eve, The Curve Mutiara Damansara HERE WE COME...

Besides, who doesn't want to go home with this pair of adorable kids... Muack...

2nd stop - The Curve

Scenario:

Traffic condition: Pheewww... thanks to my party lifestyle knowing your best route is essential especially during this festive night! Minimum traffic by paying tolls and Lucky for us ... squeezing an Altis into a Myvi car park space (NEAR TO THE EXIT) I would not able to do it without the two pretty traffic lady. Thanks babe.
People: Pack... all the pretty and sexy girls were all around... HOWEVER... handsome and well build Guyz... Sorry - dON'T Have!!! Disappointed...

Place: The Apartment Bar - High Street... Nice environment, Near to hot spot and guess what - we manage to find a table. Viola!

We ordered the Cocktails and a bucket of Heineken... what else for a celebration night hehe...
Seok Ling, Chris, Ying Ying and me

Let the celebration begins

Guess what - Party Door Gift!!!













Seok Ling - Chris - Ying Ying & me (Chris hand's shakes..)













Fireworks Time!!
And finally... It's a wrap...


HAPPY NEW YEAR BABES!!